Good Article

I found this article to be pretty solid. It discusses the faulty thinking typically associated with weightloss. It's almost as if they were talking about the old me.

I'm not even going to pretend that my eating this weekend was good. The good news is that I did at least attempt to stick to some portion control. I could have made better choices though.

Other interesting news: I wore a swimsuit out in public for pretty much the first time in my adult life. Public meaning with my family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc...). This is a big step for me for a couple of reasons. The obvious one is the weight issue. I think I've always had unrealistic view of how I should look like in a swimsuit. I've now decided that I've been too hard on myself (even in my thinner years). The less obvious one is the modesty issue. Most of you know that I've recently emerged from a very restricted lifestyle. It was a big deal for me to even wear jeans or capris, so wearing a swimsuit is a pretty big deal.

I am not going to say that I looked hot by any means, but I do think that I looked acceptable. I am somewhat fine with this...for now. I felt so comfortable. Ahhh. In the past, I'd wear a long skirt and a t-shirt over a swimsuit. It felt so good to be normal and to not feel disgusting while being normal.

I had my sister take a picture of me for inspiration or motivation, but I think it's going to be more motivational. It's funny how I can't just look at it and say, "Wow, look how far you've come." I only think, "Wow, look how far you have to go." This sucks of course, but I did mess with it in a photo editor to see what it would like like with a 10% decrease :) Much better and way more acceptable. So, I think I might have just come up with a real piece of motivation that I've been missing. Now, I'm not sure if my logic is flawed, but I was thinking that if I wanted to lose 10% of that picture, maybe I could lose 10% of my body weight (around 14 lbs). Maybe 10% decrease in body fat would work too. I think this would come out to just about 2%. Maybe the 14 lbs and 2% body fat will both happen together?

Either way, I need to get back to the gym. I think a week away from there was just what I needed though. I'm ready to get back now. I'm also ready to go back with a different focus. I will not be taking any classes, but I think I'm ready to brave "the other side" by myself. This would be the strength training section. Start small. I would also be doing some cardio still, but I'm looking for a more balanced workout. Maybe a quick cardio warmup, then some weights, and then finish with some HIIT. Just typing about it is motivating me.

btw...even though the swimsuit picture isn't awful, I don't think I'm quite ready to post it here.